As you guys know, Ive been busy. We set the wedding date. Friday February 19th 2010, my bridesmaids aren't sure they come now, but thats ok. This wedding is about Zev and I, not the people surrounding it. =) If they can make it, great! If not, I understand.




Halloween, my bro and I were goofing off and having a blast. I even got to carve a maliciously cute pumpkin. =P





Alright, some people dont think "cute" when they see it, but I do. Halloween night, Zev, Josh and I all went to see our buddie Randy in his wrestling match, it was pretty fun =P

We got home and Zev was unbelievably sweet. Like - toothache - sweet. He made my night. So, what did you guys do for halloween?

First, let me apologize, its been a while scince Ive blogged. So, I got my wedding dress in the mail a few days ago, at first I can say I was weary. The fact that I'd been tracking it like a hawk in a foreign language made me paranoid..

Example:


When the package arrived, I was freaking out. It came in what looked like a grey texturized bag the size of a throw pillow and felt like it weighed less than 3 pounds. Oh crap..oh crap...oh crap!

But sure enough, as I undid the package, there it was...my dress. Looked just like it did in the picture! I'll be darned.
Unfortunately, I havent a camera to show you what I look like in it. But here is a picture of a model way thinnner than I in it. =P

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The dress looks great on me from the front, it kind of supresses any boobage I might have, so there is only a small bust, however - the back is where I freak a little bit. It seems cut off to quickly, so what I might do is find some full width blue and green ribbon (the colors of my wedding, and my dress is already Ivory) and use it to lace the corset style back, the color should distract from the cut off I dont like.

Another thing I aim to do is get half cup sleeves tailored onto the dress (because of my broad shoulders), kind of like the dress I showed in one of my previous posts...



Ahk, I dont know how I feel about it yet, but hey, I only paid 60 bucks for the dress brand new (tailored to fit), I cant complain >.<

What do you think?

October 21, 2009 9:32 PM

So, my friend Helen has had it rough in the past few years, single mom of two whose fathers are really crummy, one being her very abusive ex boyfriend, the other father wanting little much to do with his kid (both children are amazing). She hasnt always made the best decisons and tends to be one of the "drama" prone friends in a group. Im not judging her, but dont get shy to tell her why she is doing so badly sometimes, and she loves me for that because I dont sugar coat and tell her what she wants to hear. However, recently there was one incident that was really hard on her that I couldnt really say was her fault at all.

She knows this guy, Edison, I know him too. Pretty neat guy to know, he is in and Dj's at a lot of the hotspots in H-town, he also gets us the connections into some pretty bad-ass clubs. She has known him scince she was 8 years old when she moved here from Peru. He is her sister's best friend (her sister lives in germany now), and she has always looked up to him and had a crush on him scince she was 8 and he took her trick or treating (he is about 6 years older than her). So its been kind of a weird thing for her, she thinks he is awesome, has always been able to confide in him - but has never been too close because he was "viviana's" best friend. She felt wrong for having a crush on him when he was treating/seeing her as a little sister figure. So, she convinced herself to look at him as a kind of big brother figure - you know, that guy who is protective of you with no intent towards you in a romantic or lustful way at all?

Well now, that has changed dramatically in the past week.

Edison, who has been dating this girl Nanis for about 3 years, has been acting a little weird. Helen and him have never been best friends, but you know - she would call him on advice on guys, they'd text to share what's going down in htown on the weekends and really just talk about Viviana when something was up. But lately he has been calling her a lot, which really - she has done all the calling scince they were young - he is a texter. Then he wanted her to come with her to a show cause he had no-one to go with, so he picked her up and made a weird notion. He reached over and tried massaging her leg to inner thigh - she shrieked, diverted and they went to the show. She asked me about it and I said that was weird, but we decided it'd be better to let that pass no matter how awkward that was- just trying not to assume something but keep it in mind. So we went out to the club, she ran into an ex (who was the doorman?!) and ran into Edison. He seemed to be acting ypical and was envolved with his group, giving helen little attention and setting her at ease. We finished our night on the town and on her way home, edison called her, weirdly again. His parents' locked him out of his house by accident, so he wanted to know if she would watch a movie with him. At her place, or...at a hotel? WTF? She said he was going home and called me right after to find out what to do, I told her to call him back and tell him not to come over! The massage was freaking weird and suggestive enough - but a hotel room? You dont go to a hotel room to watch movies. So she tried to call him back, but he didnt pick up and showed up at her place. Hes never been in her apartment before, but picked her up for the first time that other night. But he was at the door, and she wasnt sure of his intentions so she let him in. Sure enough, as she put on a movie, he put "the mack" on her and then she had the intervention and told him no, and how much he was putting at stake.

He had a GF of 3 years, he would loose her
Helen doesnt want to be a homewrecker
If they did kick boots, friendships are never the same
and many other meathods of reason.

And to really let his little friend drop, she mentioned the bro-figure thing and how he used to take her tricker treating when she was 8 years old. Yeaup, that killed the mood for him, she said he had the "yeah, your right, WTF am I doing look" they talked it over, hugged, said goodbye and that was it.

So, she has got some questions she has been asking me.

"Do you think he and I will be able to stay friends scince we left on a good note? Do you think he will tell nanis? Am I to blame for letting him in? Do you think he believes he cheated - do you think he will tell nanis?"

Some tough questions, I think he should tell his gf, because Ive always believed that cheating is in the intent - even if he didnt get anything from helen. I think her and him could keep a friendship so long as they are distant like before, because Edison doesnt know that helen still has a little crush on him and saying no was REALLY hard for her. She played the "big bro" card and it worked. But I think she should distance herself.

Do you think that a friendship could recover from something like that, and you consider that cheating or is that a little conservative?
At what point is it cheating, because like I said its when the intent changes for me.

To decribe myself a little, even if someone doesnt act on a behavior like Edison, if you are hanging out with someone your lingering for between the legs, but have a SO, your indulging on something thats a feeling that should only be for your SO, your intentions are changing. I know I wouldnt like my boyfriend hanging out with someone he is considering getting intimate with, just like how my boyfriend doesnt like going to strip clubs because he knows that if that was me getting all up on some dude so get him sexually aroused, he wouldnt like it. Its kind of an, If youd have to hide it - there is something wrong scenerio. Thats when your intent changes, and I definately believe Edison cheated.

What do you think? Is that cheating material? What would you have done differently than helen if so?